Mom to a Teen and Toddler

so the update

2012-01-06T11:49:00.000-05:00

I got through everything having to talk to funeral people and churches and such regarding my moms passing back in August.

Then started at Salem State University in September, so going to school M-W-F and working T-TH-Sat. so keeping really busy. I finished the semester and register for more classes and will be back on the grind starting Jan 17.

Recently found I need ear surgery, there is an infection under my eardrum this isn't good and has progressively made the hearing in my right ear so bad that its practically non existent, he thinks it may improve my hearing as well so thats a bonus, this may be the cause of my chronic headaches as well, so if they go away too double bonus.. But I am scared its my head..lots of nerves in there

my mom is an angel now

2011-08-23T19:31:00.003-04:00

OBITUARY

SALISBURY, MA: Doris K. (MacLeod) (Sheldon) Smith, 72,
formerly of Haverhill, died on August 20, 2011 at the
Kindred Hospital in Peabody, MA. Mrs. Smith was the wife of
Gordon T. Smith.

Born in Haverhill on March 15, 1939, Doris was the daughter
of the late Gordon and Violet (Valenti) MacLeod.

Doris was educated in Haverhill, and retired following
sixteen years as Receptionist and Activity Assistant at
Penacook Place in Haverhill. She attended the East Parish
United Methodist Church in Salisbury.

Besides her husband of forty years Doris is survived by her
children, Deborah Condo of Haverhill, Katherine Trask and
her husband Robert of Haverhill, Franklin W. Sheldon, 111 of
Biddeford, ME, Rev. James C. Sheldon of Dover, NH, Lisa A.
Brewster and her husband Paul of Salisbury, Tammysue Senter
and her husband Kenneth of Haverhill, Amylou Smith of
Haverhill; siblings, Theresa Eubanks of York, ME, Elaine
Ellis of Haverhill, Evelyn Taliento of Florida, Mary
Ouellette of Haverhill, Helen Rizzo of Wells, ME and Louis
MacLeod; 20 grandchildren and 23 great grandchildren. Doris
was the mother of the late Linda Mae Martin and sister of
the late James MacLeod.

Relatives and friends are invited to attend a memorial
service on Saturday, August 27th at 11:00 a.m. at the East
Parish United Methodist Church, 8 Lafayette Road, Salisbury,
MA. Arrangements by Dole, Childs & Shaw Funeral Home, 148
Main Street, Haverhill. Online condolences may be sent to
www.dcsfuneralhome.com

Drained

2011-08-11T21:08:00.000-04:00

I am just physically and emotionally drained at the moment

for some reason my unemployment check did not come and I don't get an actual paycheck til August 26 as I am payed biweekly so I have been calling them and waiting on a supervisor to fix it so I have no money to go grocery shopping or gas money had to get 10 from my niece when we visited my mom and my dad gave me 20, hate taking money from him.

hopefully it is straightened by tomorrow or saturday as my money is direct deposit

my dads van decided to break down on him today..

and this whole deal with my mom its just taking its toll

think I am off to an early bed time tonight

A letter I gave to my mom yesterday

2011-08-10T07:23:00.002-04:00

Dear Mom,

I am not the hugging type person, this I know. But I want you to know that I love you more than life itself. You have always been my rock, or the sail that has kept my ship afloat, I was so lucky that God gave me you for a mother.

You have always been there for me for everything, you held my hand when I gave birth to my baby boy and you stood by and helped me raise him, you and dad after been grandparents and father to my children. When I was little you wiped away my tears and kissed my boo boo’s and told me you loved me more that the stars in the sky. I wish we could back to days of old when I used to climb in bed with you in the morning, sometimes kicking dad out. Or when I had a bad dream, now I can only turn on the television.

You taught me that money doesn’t make the world go round but that it is love and compassion that does that. You taught me to be strong and to be independent, and to be the best mommy I can possibly be.

I don’t know why I have these personal space issues perhaps a defect when I was created, I don’t know. But mom Know this I love you to infinity and beyond, you and dad both.

Love You Always

Amy

A Long Day

2011-08-06T08:28:00.001-04:00

what a long day I am finally home, got to the train station, met babble head lol, got more that wheels at 10 45 left after 12.. home to grab car seat and fix the fuse for lighter (to charge phone) then to right at home I go two hrs this week for tomorrow, and go in Monday for hours for next week..car inspected... stopped down town to say Hi to Ceci Cannon....got Alexis from school the teachers love and will miss her (of course) then to the hospital to see my mom and was there till 6 30ish when Dad, Alexis and I went to papa ginos, he rode with me, dropped him back at the hospital, and finally home.. now in Jammies and relaxing...oh yeah and at the hospital bumped into an old friend her and I were preggo at the same time

and now I am adding on
the car is a 2004 buick regal few dents but in good condition, and remember its a temporary bridge car till I get my brandy new one which hopefully will be a Nissan Versa or a Toyota Yaris, or something similar Those were the choices I listed but also wrote I care more for a lower car payment than a huge one as in a few years i gotta pay student loans as well, I will try and get Dylan to take a pic or two

I am working 2 hours tomorrow but know what that means is that even though its only a small about with Bi weekly I will get a check next Friday for the 2 weeks That what happened last time at least, even though week one is just 2 hrs I don't care it means holding back only happens on the 2 hrs..

My moms BP was very low last night and she was having hard time breathing, she actually told me she thought she was gonna meet her maker, Kind of scary to hear, but she was doing better today.. they are having a hard time getting her to a rehab because of the radiation, any place even the hospital she is transported to her treatments though its on the hospital campus so not far.. transportation is a factor

My mom is in the hospital :(

2011-08-03T14:52:00.000-04:00

My mom pictured above with little Lexi looking at her is on oxygen as you can see in the picture, she got on oxygen two years ago when she went to the hospital and was discovered she had renal failure.

Well a few months ago she was diagnosed with Breast Cancer (Cancer Sux). At the end of April she had surgery and they cut 17 lymph nodes out 3 were cancerous stage 2.

She would later meet with Doctors that do Chemo and Radiation. She is only doing radiation because of her health issues which include renal failure, COPD, a leaky heart valve, and she is on insulin for diabetes since the last hospital scare, she is to have six and a half weeks of radiation, she has has two weeks and one day then after the last day while trying to get in the house her legs collapsed and she was taking to the hospital. Well Yesterday I had my dads van so after errands I went to the hospital and got the scoop so far. Moms potassium levels were dangerously high, her blood counts are low. But her kidney functions are thankfully stable for now. While there yesterday the Nurse who's also named Amy like me, which for some reason makes mom happy. Said she has noticed that my moms leg is turned out so they wanna get an X-Ray of her hip.

With no transportation till Friday I have no way to get there I tried calling and its just rigging and ringing so I called the nurses station. They said she is in Radiation

Please keep my mom in you thoughts and prayers

My own personal Not Me Monday

2011-08-01T07:35:00.000-04:00

I know that there hasn't been a Not Me Monday Mclinky on McMama's page in a while but I have a couple of Not Me Monday experiences

So today I did Not keep Alexis home from School today because I discovered that she and Dylan ate her school snacks for this week, and I cannot get more till tonight when I am am borrowing my dads car

I was Not to lazy yesterday and I did Not order pizza instead..Nope that was Not Me!!

I did Not Let Alexis where the same clothes on Sunday that she fell asleep in on Saturday, I totally would Never do that because I did Not fall asleep when I was do to babysit and I did not have time to bathe and change her, so I also did Not spot wash her with a face cloth so she would appear clean, I do Not see a mom of the year award coming my way

Oh what a night

2011-07-31T11:16:00.000-04:00

I have insomnia most of the the time and I just cannot fall asleep, but somehow I managed to fall asleep before 9pm to only get awoken and then I was unable to go back to sleep I even watch 4 episodes of 90210 (the new one) and did not fall asleep.. Last Night was chalk full of the family DRAMA.

Anywho because of all the family drama last night my behind is dragging today, thank goodness its only Sunday and not Monday.. Its 11:15 and I am now just moving my lazy behind out of bed and getting ready for the day.. Babysitting today at 3 so I need to get some energy some how

terrible four and a halfs?

2011-07-30T09:00:00.001-04:00

Really tell me is there such a thing?

Because let me tell you Alexis is certainly demonstrating terrible 4 1/2's and I am about out of my mind.

I think the problem lies in the daycare/preschool she started when I no longer had a car to drive her to school anymore, so we had to say goodbye to our beloved preschool all of our friends and teachers. We brought cupcakes and had a farewell party and Alexis got tons of hugs and I will miss you from all of her friends.

The new preschool is obviously not a good fit with Alexis she has regressed in the few months she has been there and this horrific behavior hitting and punching me, this is all new. Now grunting and wining instead of using her words. She has PVL and Mild CP and global delays though she has caught up greatly while at the former school, she is losing these things and my little girl is disappearing and in her place a mean one.

well I had found out last Tuesday that I would have a car in a couple weeks so I spoke to former schools director and she had a spot for her, so I gave my 2 weeks notice to the new school and I am happy to report she returns to beloved school on August 8. I get my car August 5th so it worked out with timing fantastically

I am hoping that soon after being back in her old habitat my sweet girl will emerge once again. After all the preschool room at beloved school has classrooms with age appropriate children together, at new school she was the oldest and the rest are 2 yr olds, Beloveds preschool class is 3.9 to 5 or 6 better than the age 2-5 ratio.

so I cannot wait for her to be back at beloved school, only one week left at this school...

Linking up for 5Q Friday

2011-07-29T12:22:00.000-04:00

1. Vow renewal ceremonies-yay or nay?

I don't really have a Yay or Nay for this one, I can see why some people do it like because of illness or they are reconnecting after breaking up or some such

I am not married and have yet to be, because I believe Marriage is forever, yes I thought I would be Married to my children's Bio Father, but so glad that ship sailed on.

So seeing that I believe marriage is forever I don't really need to do it for fake when I already had the real deal.

Though it I find the Love of my Life maybe my view will change?

2. What sound/s annoy you the most?

winey kids or wining in general... OMG it drives me up a wall when Alexis gets all winey, Dylan never did.

My mom says well ones a boy and ones a girl but I have seen winey boys and men as well

3. If you had to pick, would you have only all boys, or only all girls for kids?

Nope I cannot pick I really Like my one boy one girl combo its great, though because my youngest is a girl I think I want another girl if I have another, sisters are great. But I think I am done with a capital D. Dylan will be 18 in March, Alexis will be 5 in November. I am getting older and don't think I wanna chase little ones, I had Dylan at 16 so the better would have been a child in between but that didn't happen

4. Do you believe in alternative medicine?

I believe in positive thoughts and prayers I have thought of acupuncture, but have yet to try is so I guess so.

5. Would you take a family member's children and raise them if they needed it?

I guess it depends on the circumstances, I would like to say absolutely but when Alexis was a sick baby, the state took my nieces 3 kids away, I just could no handle 3, and including Alexis there would have been 3 under 2 1/2. Alexis didn't walk and there was the baby and the toddler was delayed and there was a 6yr old, just couldn't do it, felt bad. My sister their grandma is raising them. I help when I can

catch up on my life lately

2011-07-29T08:43:00.001-04:00

My car ~~shit the bead~~ died on me three months ago I have not owned a vehicle since and I have had to depend on people for rides, which is a complete and utter pain in the behind

for one month I did have my dads van because he had an infection in his leg that prevented him from driving.

I had to take Alexis out of her preschool and move her to one that provided transportation, totally not a good fit for her I have just given my 2 weeks notice and thank goodness she is able to go back to her old school where she thrived.

I joined a program called more than wheels and I am getting a bridge car through their bridge program which is a loaner/rental car. In the long run I will end up with a brand new car in 6 to 9 months. Yay for dependability and no more ~~shit boxes~~ cars that have seen better days. I get my bridge car Friday August 5th so one more week carless is all thank goodness. I have been going stir crazy. The car is right on time Alexis starts back at her school the 8th. In this program you also take a financial fitness class which has also taught me some good

I am a terrible blogger, random thoughts

2011-07-28T08:30:00.000-04:00

I get gun ho about blogging then I don't

Life happens and I don't

sometimes fun things happen and I neglect to blog

and the this is I do like writing what I am feeling out, because it makes me a better person

I do not care that I am uninteresting and no one reads me its and outlet and I think I should try to write more. I write on the Facebook everyday. Sometimes I post quotes.

I heart quotes

I however did write a heartfelt blog yesterday about Jim, I am really good a Narratives so maybe I will write some Narratives?

we will see

A day I will never forget

2011-07-27T22:56:00.001-04:00

I was at the court house I told the clerk that I needed to speak to someone about him, That he needed treatment this Time and not to just be tossed in a Jailcell, he has been sick and has been cutting down on his alcohol intake but he needs treatment... Sitting in the courtroom I awaited his name to be called as I had not seen him the day before in the morning before I headed to work, I kissed him on the cheek and whispered that I loved him, remembering the night before how he told me I was so sweet and he loved me... A Police man came over to me and said the person you're waiting for is en route to the hospital that there was some sort of incident.... I get in my car I drive to the hospital that is just a little bit up the road, I go to reception and say I know he is here but that your not supposed to tell me but the police said he was brought here, someone comes and takes me to a little waiting room, a lady comes in and makes some idle chatter and says the doctor will come in and tell you whats going on... Enters Doctor, well we worked on him and were able to revive him but then he just didn't make it... My world totally crashed around me.. you see he had and old stupid warrant from years back and 2 of his friends decided to turn him in to get him some help but he was never brought to the hospital just to jail, where I eventually found out is where he actually died. He was my boyfriend, his name was Jim Cheney and he was an addict, he quit a heroin addiction before he was my boyfriend, I had known him for a long time and fell in Love with him, he would have given you the shirt off his back but he couldn't slay his demons and he died on January 19, 2006... He would have been 32 a few weeks later his birthday was February 4, Tragic ending to a young life.

this is what I thought of when I heard the news of Amy Winehouse its just sad how drugs and alcohol can destroy lives. for Mama's losing it writing prompts

boy I neglect my blogs

2011-04-03T15:52:00.000-04:00

I have been searching for a job but no such luck yet...
I do have a lead that I am calling tomorrow praying it works out.

My son is now 17 his birthday was March 18 S.E.V.E.N.T.E.E.N.!!! wow where did this time go I remember when he was my tiny little baby at 6lbs 91/2 oz 18 1/2 inches now he is 125 ish pounds and 5'6

what a difference 17 years makes...My boy with attitude

I want to buy a camera from my niece its way better than my point and shoot I hope I get a job soon and can snatch it from her before she sells it to someone else, I want to take another photography class I loved the 1st one

I also need to buy another car this one is falling a part, I hoped to get a year in September it will be a year we will see

Sitting on my but

2011-01-10T19:55:00.002-05:00

I really need to get motivated now that my car is finally fixed I need to find a job.

But all I seem to be able to do is sit on my but and watch Netflix or log onto facebook.

I need to stop procrastinating and get a move on

Finished my associates degree

2011-01-09T19:35:00.002-05:00

That 2 and 1/2 years went by pretty fast.

Not time to transfer and find a job

And the beat goes on

2010-10-19T15:11:00.000-04:00

one of my classes this semester is intro to the creative experience

Its quite interesting, paint with water colors play with playdough

had to try a food I have never tried before

the teacher is fantastic.

Tonight I am going to see my guitar guy play guitar and sing tonight in Boston
he is one of my best friends so I go see him alot to support him

wow I am back

2010-10-16T18:28:00.000-04:00

for the three people who actually follow me I am BACK!!!!

My schooling has kicked my bum these last few semesters but alas this is my last semester and I am only part time.

I was carless for 2 months when my van decided that it was done running let me tell you getting to the bus and the little one was terrible and spending hours on campus just because she was at preschool/daycare and I did not want her to lose her spot.

Well its almost Halloween and I am thinking about costumes, I personally don't usually dress for the occasion but my niece is turning 30 and having a halloween costume party for her birthday. So needless to say I need a costume and I am leaning towards some sort of clothing that can be used as clothing after the halloween celebrating. leaning toward a plaid skirt and being A) school girl B) Abby Sciuto from NCIS C) a gothic type
girl. Now I am not a thin girl so I am hoping it works okay.

Alexis was a princess last year so I will look for something new.

Dylan can be whatever he wants he is 16 1/2

anyways when the time comes I will be sure to post pictures.

In one month my babygirl will be 4 years old FOUR!!!!!!

Back in the Swing Of Things, Well Maybe

2010-04-26T16:04:00.000-04:00

So anyways this Semester at school was a total kicker.. But I have persevered. I had a thirteen page research paper and it took all my focus and zapped all my energy... But guess what I received an A- woo hoo!

3 more weeks of class and 2 finals left... two more papers due as well. Then this semester is over.

In May I get my Certificate Yay!!! Hopefully by the end of summer this certificate will help me get a part time job.

I am taking summer classes, I originally wanted the summer off but I have 2 sciences and 2 labs and I did not want to take them at the same time so I chose to take human biology and lab in the summer. But that was only 4 credits and I need 6 credits to get financial aide so I am also taking intro to digital photography, hopefully this will be a fun class, and not that hard.

In the fall I have human health and nutrition and lab and Intro to the creative experience. That art class is a three hour class at night boo hoo... But I need it to graduate with my associates degree in December.

So anyways something I missed posting is that Dylan turned 16.. Had a nice party with Tim Cannon playing guitar. It was a fun time...

So anyways I hope to keep up on this better and catch up with blog hops and all that

wow neglecting the blog

2010-04-25T21:03:00.000-04:00

It has been a really tough semester for me at school this semester, but it is almost over thank goodness.. I will also be finished interning...

I am Graduating with my Community Support Practitioner Certificate this May and my Associates Degree in Human Services in December.

Thoughts

2010-02-15T14:45:00.000-05:00

I have done something recently that I am just unsure of.
I guess this may sound a bit cryptic.
But I kinda just went with the flow that was going on..and now I worry if it were the wrong thing to have done?

Oh well i guess we have to live with the decisions we make.

I would rather live with some possible regrets if they made me happy, then not to have lived.

sorry

2010-02-12T21:33:00.003-05:00

Haven't been posting .. Life is happening

getting to know you 1/24/2010

2010-01-24T20:07:00.000-05:00

following along with this blog: http://www.mannland5.com:

1. Waffles, pancakes or french toast?

I would have to go with french toast

2. Dream home..What would it look like?

Just a simple ranch style home. maybe with some extra room. set on its own big chunk of land so we could be noisy and not worry about neighbors..oh with a heated pool and a hot tub

3. Favorite sport to watch during the Winter Olympics?

i guess the figure skating

4. The first word that comes to mind when describing yourself?

nice

5. Dresses, pants (jeans, leggings, etc.) or skirts?

pants

6. What is your favorite time of day?

I like night I think

7. Beach or Mountains..which do you prefer?

The Beach most certainly i love the ocean and lived at the beach for 3 yrs i miss it

8.Will you watch the Super Bowl?
when I have to

five question friday

2010-01-23T17:24:00.000-05:00

following along on five question friday for more check this blog outhttp://fivecrookedhalos.blogspot.com/2010/01/five-question-friday-12210.html

1. What is better, growing old with out money or dying young and wealthy? I think my choice would be living longer

2. Who takes out the garbage at your house? supposed to be Dylan but it is like pulling teeth

3. Have you ever had the same dream many times? I have in the past but not so much lately

4. Can you play a musical instrument? no I am not talented this way

5. If you owned your own store, what would you sell? It would be a book store/coffee shop and there would be entertainment there as well

Random thoughts

2010-01-17T11:52:00.000-05:00

So I went out with a friend that I have not seen in 4 years since my boyfriend Jim passed away. Its been kind of an emotional month for me so it was to have a girls night out, I hope to be able to do it again.

This whole month has been like an emotional roller coaster. My sister Linda passed away 6 years ago in December. On New years eve I had thoughts about the fun I had on past New Years eve's with her and it kind of brought me down.

My boyfriend whom was like my best friend was an alcoholic and former drug addict. He will be gone for 4 years on January 19. He died just weeks before his 32nd birthday. psorosis of the liver.It was a very sad event in my life. He was my best friend moreso than a lover. This year its hitting me hard.

I have issues with my childrens father. He is just a jerk. He has emotionally scarred my son. My daughter is just to young at the moment but eventually she will be hurt as well. I wish I could just meet someone new who would treat her as their own. Also to be a good friend to Dylan.

Dylan really just needs some type of male influence in his life right now and I just don't know what I am to do about the situation. I am just at a loss to help him deal with what he is going through and all his emotions.

My crush man I am crushing so much harder lately. He is such a nice guy. I think he may be attracted to me, but not really sure of expectations, maybe there is none and its just wishful thinking on my part?

5 question Friday(sorry its a day late)

2010-01-16T08:59:00.000-05:00

I am joining in on this weeks 5 question Friday again, for more go to http://fivecrookedhalos.blogspot.com/2010/01/five-question-friday-11510.html

1. Worst trouble you ever got into as a teenager? I think that the biggest trouble I ever got in was for ringing up the telephone bill, we had went on vacation and i met a kid from New Jersey that I talked on the phone with for hours and hours, to bad they did not have unlimited long distance back then like now.

2. Are you a morning person or a night person? how about an afternoon person, I am not full fuctioning in the morning but I am not a night owl either, I guess I take the middle road.

3. Are you a one-handed or a two-handed Texter? I think I am a 2 thumb texter mostly

4. Democrat, Republican, or Independent..or maybe even Green Party (whatever that is). not very political, I vote for who I think will do the better job.

5. Are you a pet person? I like dogs, my my kids each have a cat cause dogs are not allowed in my apartment.

Is off

2010-01-09T10:50:00.000-05:00

Hello Internet,
I am off in just two hours to go see my friend Diana, the same one who I hadn't seen in years that I posted about last night. I am going a little earlier this time so that we have a good time to just hang around. Anyways heres to Good Times!!

5 Question Friday hosted by Mama M

2010-01-08T18:58:00.000-05:00

I am going to join up for Mama M's bloghop this week for her 5 question Friday, Go check her out at http://fivecrookedhalos.blogspot.com/

1. What's your "comfort food"?
I like Soup there is nothing better than a cup o soup to cure it all. I like home made soup the best but in a pinch a can of a homestyle soup will do.

2. Do you send Thank You's (handwritten or email)?
I usually say thank you in person or on the phone if it cannot be face to face.

3. If you had to be trapped in a TV show for a month, which show would you choose?
There are so many to chose from, I have so many favorites. Okay I'll pick true blood... I would be one of Sookie Stackhouse's best friends... Okay House would be next choice

4. What is your favorite online recipe site?
I don't really have one

5. If you had to choose: "Friends" or "Seinfeld"?
I guess friends because I have never found Seinfeld interesting at all

Its Humpday and what I have done this week so far

2010-01-07T00:10:00.000-05:00

Well it is wednesday or Humpday as some people like to call it because they have made it through the hump of the week, Technically for me it is the end of humpday as it is 11:57 pm.

So anyways on Monday my lap top died and I needed to get another one for how else will I get my ~~blogging~~ ~~and facebooking done~~ school work completed? I did in fact take my laptop to be repaired but they pretty much said ha ha you might as well buy a new one... Ha ha ha I have no money, so I left there and went to ~~rent a wreck~~ rent a center, as I have no money, they do have this deal though that if you pay it off in 90 days it is same as their cash price which is slightly higher the actual price at the store.

As a single mom this is how I have gotten some of the bigger ticket items such as my fridge and washer and dryer. I wanted to get a new kitchen table but alas this computer fiasco came first.

Well my apartment is still pretty clean after my deep cleaning. I mean it doesn't look as if a cyclone hit it yet.

So this saturday I am off to my friends again the one thats in this blog. I cannot wait hurry hurry saturday.

also going to see my favorite guitar guy both friday and saturday, how cool is that?

I need my breaks and enjoy the music.

I had a sad day a few nights ago, I was thinking of the people I no longer have in my life anymore. I think its because its still close to the holidays.

NOT ME Monday!!!!!

2010-01-04T12:04:00.001-05:00

Following along with MckMama's Not me Monday... for for more non confessions head her way.

I did NOT fail to post my Christmas post until December 31 no way why would I be so lazy?

I did NOT pay my sons teenage friends to clean the mess that Christmas left at my house. I am so NOT being so lazy this last week.

On Christmas morning I did NOT fail to put the ham in the fridge before I left for my parents house and my cats did NOT get into said ham and eat some of it.. Not my kitties.

Gee I did NOT like having two days to myself because I did NOT bring Alexis to daycare/school even though I was home for the week. she did stay with me the other three days but NOT because one day she had an appointment, one day there was no care and one day was a half day and I was Not to lazy to bring her in.

Can't wait to see everyone else's NOT me's

Starting on resolution 3

2010-01-03T14:26:00.000-05:00

Or at least it is the third on the list of three things that I wrote for resolutions, which are not really resolutions. They are in fact Life changes that I need to make.

Anyways I got started today by extreme cleaning my apartment out, I am so thoroughly cleaning..So far two rooms are very clean.. see it can not look perfect because its not, the wall need painting, the rugs are dingey, so its not perfect but at least its working on being clean and organized.. I just cannot stand it... Of course it will all get clean with exception of Dylans room I just changed rooms between Alexis and Dylan, She just had way more stuff and no room, also because his room was so disgusting (I mean like growing science experiments) But alas both the kids rooms were clean, well Dylan is back to his old self of it looking like a cyclone hit it..

He refuses to get off his butt to throw his garbage away... not only does he do this in his room where eating is not supposed to happen he does it in every room.. gets a can of soda when finished throws it on the floor.. I even put a trash pail next to him so that he doesn't have to move..still on the floor..

He is almost 16 I pitty his wife someday, I hope she is a neat freak.

Speaking of neat freak, I want to train myself to be one.. I mean I am gonna be a perfectionest of anything. But I do not want to be ashamed to invite people over.. And I am gonna ride Dylans behind hard for him to get on board. Maybe then my 3 yr old will grow up to be neater unlike her brother.. But its really not his fault I never enforced it..

Maybe i'll get the nerve to even invite my crush over? Its motivation anyways

New Years Resolutions

2010-01-02T14:06:00.002-05:00

To continue bettering the lives of me and my little family

to continue be more healthy

to have a more organized house

Happy New Year

2010-01-01T01:07:00.000-05:00

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ooops... Very late Christmas day pictures...sorry as Today is New Years eve

2009-12-31T15:03:00.000-05:00

Hello I hope everyone has had happy holidays, please pardon my tardiness.

O' Christmas Tree that I did not even decorate because I bought the display at the store.

At least this year we had presents under the tree, I was just very unsure how I was going to make it happen.

Time to rip into the presents

Oh look Dylan is hiding from the camera

but he likes this shirt

oh lets not forget kitty kitty and Simba... Kitty kitty is looking proud while Dylan had to catch Simba for a pic

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T20:57:00.002-05:00

Just wanted to say Hello and Merry Christmas will post pics tomorrow

Merry Christmas Eve

2009-12-24T13:16:00.000-05:00

I have to go to the store on Christmas Eve because I did not have any money until today. I need to get a few last minute Items for my Children. I also need to drop off a present.. most of them came here and we exchanged But my sister Deb does not feel well so I will head there.

I am still not feeling the Christmas cheer, But I have some things that I am so very thankful for. I have my children with me and they mean the world to me and not much matters so much beyond that. My mom is feeling better since her illness during the summer and I am very thankful for that.

By next Christmas I will be finished with my associates degree in Human services. I am more than half way finished, that is a great feeling of accomplishment.

I am looking forward to the New Year and hope that things keep improving for my family for that is what I am striving to accomplish.

So Merry Christmas Eve to everyone, Hope Santa fill your stockings aplenty, I hope Jesus fills your heart with Joy and Love.

For those of your struggling with Christmas like myself, Remember Christmas is about Love it is about thoughtfulness, what it is not about is who can buy the bigger, fancier gift. Your children will thrive with the love from you.

Bah Humbug

2009-12-22T07:37:00.000-05:00

The Tree is finally up.

I wrapped most of the presents, I need more paper I ran out.

I am going through the motions and doing what is expected.

But I just don't feel it and I feel like a Bah Humbug.

Maybe it is because I am a single mom of two and I have to do it all on my own with no help. No one to share this experience with.

Maybe it is because I have lost so many loved ones near the holidays? My oldest sister has been gone 6 years on December 13.

I am just not feeling the Christmas spirit this year. But I will continue on for my children.

NOT ME Monday!!!!!

2009-12-21T13:00:00.001-05:00

Well Its been a while but I am Joining in on NOT me Monday this week.

It was NOT me who has procrastinated so long to put a Christmas tree up, Why would I wait till December 20th to put up a artificial tree? I certainly did NOT buy a display tree that was already set up and had some decoration already on it. Of course I was NOT to lazy to put any ornaments on it yet, and I certainly will NOT leave it as is and perhaps consider it done.

I did NOT give 5 teenagers double cheeseburgers from McDonalds to help me switch my kids rooms around, and I did NOT mostly just watch and NOT really do anything myself.

I have NOT failed to wrap any of there Christmas presents yet, I certainly am NOT waiting till the last minute.

Well for more NOT me Monday head on over to MckMama's blog

Hope everyone Has Happy Holidays

Life just gets in the way sometimes..here is what is going on

2009-12-20T09:16:00.002-05:00

Last Tuesday was my birthday I am now 32 years young.. I had to give two oral presentations at school this day as well ughhh

Over the last few weeks I have been dealing with my kids father...

I just don't understand what is up with my teenage son... Perhaps being almost 16+ being in a first kind of relationship = Chaos and attitude? He is totally a different kid and its been very hard dealing with him and his attitude recently

I am sure I tanked my Final in Abnormal Psychology last thursday

On Friday I had to take Alexis to Boston to see the metabolism specialist. They think she may have a syndrome..its a duplication of a gene.. which could be the reason for her delays and such. She had to have a lot more blood drawn as well... Now I do not have this duplication. So it is either passed from her dad which would not be cause for the syndrome if it came from him, we will not find out that because he will not have the blood test.

It could be spontaneous to her and would be cause for the syndrome... maybe more labs will give some answers.

They also think they heard a heart murmur so Alexis is having a followup with the pediatrician on the 29th

My semester of school is officially over on Dec 22. One more year and I will be finished with my associates Degree.

Sorry that I have been away

2009-12-13T23:02:00.002-05:00

There have been some stresses going on, Major stresses in my life these last 2 weeks and I need to deal with it all... Plus it is the end of semester at college as well

put on top of the fact that I am turning 32 on tuesday

UGHHHHHHH

A plug for my friend Tim Cannon

2009-12-07T09:15:00.001-05:00

Tim Cannon is a talented musician. I just think he is totally awesome and I always go out to see him when he plays out acoustically. Any talent scouts out there look no further. He is awesome.
I went to see him Saturday night and took this picture because my camera was still in my pocket. Internet you should check out his website at www.timcannon.net

Here he is, it was snowing hard in the background but it did not show up in the picture.

again check him out at timcannon.net or at myspace.com/timcannon he also has faceb.ook

A reunion

2009-12-06T09:15:00.000-05:00

Friday I went to Manchester Nh to meet up with and old friend, she found me on facebook and we have been talking for quite some some between facebooking, texting, and talking on the phone. It was great to see her after all these years.

The small above picture is of us back in the day

something like over 17 yrs ago

we were at a fair on a school trip

the one on the left is Angela another old school friend who I have not seen in years,

the one in the middle/back is Diana,

and of course on the right is me with the hideous belly bag

We had a great time together we laughed so hard, it was like it has not been seventeen whole years since we seen each other. It was a fantastic time. Diana and I went out to an upscale lounge/club that another of my friends plays guitar. We should have taken pictures while we we dressed up but forgot and took them the next day. there is pic of us. then of our kids.

we look worn out, it was a long night catching up.

her two on the left are Amanda and Brynn, and my two on the right Alexis and Dylan

Here is to old friends and new friends.

Diana and I have such similar stories its uncanny it is like we are long lost sisters. Here is to continued friendships

December already

2009-12-04T07:17:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was a freak day it was almost like in the 70's here, while my poor cousin who moved to Texas to get away from the cold was complaining about the weather being only 33 degrees.

I have gone to the Gym Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday this week, M and W I did water aerobics and T and Th worked in the Gym. Its good because I have been able to sleep better at night as I have wicked insomnia and I have been feeling more energized. I want to do water aerobics or swimming on M-W-F and the Gym T-Th. That is my goal anyways. A friend from college has been coming with me so that is good.

I am not going to the Gym tonight. I am going to meet up with a friend from when I was a teenager. I have not seen her in a long time but thanks to facebook we reconnected. I will bring a camera and I will get pictures.

oh and this semester of school is almost over Yay.

Five question Friday... a day late

2009-11-28T21:11:00.000-05:00

I thought I would join in on Mama M.'s blog carnival at www.fivecrookedhalos.blogspot.com

1. Do you do a real or fake Christmas tree? I am allergic to the tree's so I have to use a fake one and the one from last year looked like a Charlie Brown tree. We also have a cute 12 inch tree that if I am unable to find a decent tree this year. We will use.

2. What is your favorite Christmas tradition with your family? I think it is the excitement the kids have to get up in the morning and see all the presents. I do not put any presents under the tree until Christmas eve. Though this year moneys tight so it probably will not look like a whole lot.

3. Do you celebrate Thanksgiving in your neck of the woods? yes And, if so...how many calories do you think you consumed yesterday? I was very good this year and even lost weight

4. Have you started decorating for Christmas, yet? no, not at all

5. What is your favorite Christmas cookie? sugar cookie, you know they are different shapes like trees and santas

Introducing a very special lady

2009-11-28T09:51:00.000-05:00

........................My Mom...also known as Nana to 40 kids now.

She is just the best in the world and I don't know where I would be with out her.

Back in August she went to the Hospital because she was not feeling well. They admitted her.

Things were not looking very well. I was staying strong and then my dad said something really downer and then I broke, My mom is 70 and has lived a long life full of her 8 children, 20 grandchildren, and her building number of great grandchildren which is numbered 20 as of the 18th of November. Now we found out there is another on the way. Anyways I am in No way shape or form ready to lose my mom and that was a really scary time for me.

But after 2 weeks in the hospital and 4 weeks in a rehab facility she got home where she wanted to be. This is something That I am VERY Thankful for this Holiday season.

This is Mom and her 20th grandchild My babygirl showing some love. I am glad I had my camera for this touching moment.

I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!

perhaps this should be written on Mothers day but I wanted to share now!

Happy Turkey Day

2009-11-26T08:49:00.000-05:00

I just wanted to say Happy Turkey Day to everyone. Me and the kiddos are going to my mom and dads today to eat dinner. I will be back here and tell you all what I am thankful for and post some pics hopefully. Granted the table will Not be set up in grandeur style.But it is food that God has provided.

New Do's

2009-11-24T20:38:00.000-05:00

There is a new hair place near where I live and for grand opening they are doing haircuts for $2.99..I was like wow and Alexis and I went for impromptu haircuts

Above is Alexis and below is myself

So what do you think of our new do's, sorry as its Tuesday and I forgot to do not me Mondays yesterday I will have to save it for next week.

what we did do was get haircuts for $2.99 each

Arghhhh....and some tidbits

2009-11-18T07:10:00.000-05:00

Alexis is not going to be going to the developmental preschool. cognitively they feel she is getting what she needs from her daycare center ( which she has been in preschool since September, before that she was in the toddler class) I love the center they are great, but she is developmentally delayed and has PVL which is brain damage even though thank God it is mild. But anyways she will be getting the therapies PT,OT, and ST through the public schools and will have and IEP. It is only 2 hours a week that she has been approved for. I am getting some help on a possible appeal.

My niece Corina Rose is have her second baby today, she is scheduled for a C-section. So welcome to the world Ava, your big brother Austin is gonna love you. I will post a pic when I get one.

I have to go to the town hall where I used to live to pick up Alexis' birth certificate because in all her three years i have yet to get it, but I need it to register for the public school services she is going to be getting.

Well I am off to get ready for the day of interning

It is November 17 2009 and my baby is three

2009-11-17T01:08:00.001-05:00

How can it be that you have been on this earth for three years already?

It seems like only yesterday when you were born.
this tiny little miracle weighing in at 5lbs 2 1/2 oz
17 1/2 inches long. You just could not wait to get into this world

And then before I knew it,

And you were one

It seems like I blinked and another year went by.
And then you were two

I don't know how but I must have blinked again because my baby girl is growing up.

And now you are three

Happy Birthday to my baby girl
who is growing up way to fast.

NOT me Monday

2009-11-16T19:30:00.001-05:00

Following along with MckMama with my own not me Monday post. I also wish to thank god for Stellan and his successful ablation

I did Not forget to order Alexis' birthday cake until Saturday morning the day before her party.

Okay so on Saturday the serpentine belt did NOT fall off my car while I was Not out trying to get last minute things for Alexis' birthday party. It was Not pouring out and I did not get soaked waiting on a tow truck to get me home.

Because said car was NOT broke down I did not need a ride to get the cake the I did Not almost forget to order, and I did Not arrive to my own child's late, No way that wasn't me.

This is Not the last day my baby will be 2 she can Not be turning 3 tomorrow

Alexis birthday party was today

2009-11-15T19:53:00.000-05:00

We celebrated Alexis' 3rd Birthday today, we had a joined birthday party with her 2nd cousin Nikolis. It was Dora and Diago themed

Alexis' cake

Nikolis' cake

And this last one is of the two birthday kiddo's together. Alexis will be 3 on November 17 and Nikolis will be 2 on November 29.

I cannot believe the price of cakes now. I paid $25.99 for Alexis cake and $5.95 for the Dora candle. The cake was a 1/4 sheet last year I got a half sheet for the same price. Whats up with that? Anyways it was a fun and chaotic time with a birthday party for two little ones. I do not think this is an experience we want to repeat.

I am going to make a slide show and post it soon when I have all the photos uploaded.

Introduction to our Pets

2009-11-14T20:24:00.000-05:00

Well tomorrow is Alexis Birthday party and she was given a kitten, we were looking for one a while back but ended up adopting and older cat named Kitty Kitty (we just left the name)

So anyways this is a picture of Dylan with his Cat Kitty Kitty

My children hung out in my bedroom today hence the messy bed and princess chair on the left.

And with out further ado here is Simba (he reminds us of Simba from the Lion King when he was a cub).

Isn't he just adorable

So now we have two cats

Talking about Thursday: my favorite vacation spot

2009-11-12T19:48:00.000-05:00

I am linking up with Genny from Mycup2yours and writing about my favorite vacation spot.

So I have not been on an actual Vacation since I was still a kid living with my parents. We went to Ohio to visit my dad's dad and step mom and went to Cedar point where I took my dad on the first roller coaster that was suspended as opposed to having rails

Boy I don't think my dad expected that kind of experience, he tossed his cookies (or should I say fried dough) after that.

My grandparents lived on lake Erie it was beautiful and even as a child I recognized the beauty.

I caught fireflies

It was pouring rain but after a hot summer day it was fun to play out there in the puddles with my dad.
(I wish I had the pictures)

I was made to eat fish that my uncle Rich caught which has given me a distaste for all things seafood to this day.

I remember the boat ride in Lake Erie on Uncle Rich's boat feeling the water spray on my face.

I remember my little round smurf floatie I had for swimming in the pool because i could not get my head wet because I had tubes in my ears.

I remember how tan I got on that 2 week long vacation and coming home and people thinking I went to Florida because I was tan.

I had an extremely bad day yesterday

2009-11-11T06:41:00.000-05:00

As I am a single mom I have to rely on a daycare voucher for me to go to school/intern. Well yesterday I woke up got ready as usual. Got myself and Alexis out the door earlier than usual because I wanted to get to school early to study for a quiz. When I got to the daycare I was told my voucher was being terminated. I was floored and frustrated. Had to leave and find out why. I called and I was told I was not doing enough to warrant the voucher. What? I am a full time college student and I intern. they were only counting the 11 hours I was physically at school and not counting my internship. They did not call and tell me this. It was a terrible morning. However I said how can this be rectified? where is your internship at they ask. I answer. Well ask them if you can do community service. I talk to my agency and my professor and they are on board with me interning/community service. I will be treated like an Intern but will be getting forms signed saying I am doing community service. Because today is a holiday it is not in effect till tomorrow, but the daycare said they would keep her anyways I do have to intern today

NOT me Monday

2009-11-09T10:00:00.001-05:00

I most certainly did NOT pay one of my friends to help me clean my house last week why would I do that when I have a teenager that should be helping me?

I did NOT break into Alexis' birthday presents to get her dressed Friday morning because she did NOT get to tall for her clothes in the last few weeks

I did NOT eat any kit kats from Alexis' Halloween candy why would I ever do that?

And lastly I did NOT have a 10 hour phone conversation with someone the other day, How could we possibly talked for 10 hours straight?

ABC's of me

2009-11-08T11:00:00.001-05:00

I read this on other blogs and thought I would do it myself

A - Age:31 I will be 32 December 15
B - Bed size: King!
C - Chore you hate: them all
D - Dog's name: don't have a doggy
E - Essential start your day item: logging on to facebook
F - Favorite color: bluw
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 5'6"
I - Instruments you play: none
J - Job title: Mom, Full time student and Intern
K - Kid(s): Dylan and Alexis
L - Living arrangements: With my teen and toddler and a roommate at the moment
M - Mom's name: Doris
N - Nicknames: Amy
O - Overnight hospital: just to give birth to my children
P - Pet Peeve(s): obnoxious people
Q - Quote from a movie: Don't really have one!
R - Right or left handed: Right
S - Siblings: 5 sisters and 2 brothers...Linda (passed away 2003) Debbie, Kathy, Franky, Jimmy, Lisa Tammy.
T - Time you wake up: Anywhere from 5:30 7:30
U - Underwear: of course
V - Vegetable you dislike: Brussel sprouts, asparagus, cauliflower, I am sure there is more
W - Workout style: YMCA, treadmill bike nautilus equipment and swimming
X - X-rays you've had: too many
Y - Yesterday's best moments: seeing my babygirl laugh
Z - Zoo favorite: haven't been to one in a long time

Spring cleaning...Err... Not exaclty spring but cleaning none the less

2009-11-07T20:03:00.000-05:00

I am sick of my messy house.

With a teenager and a toddler and a lazy roommate, cleaning up after both plus going to school full time and doing my internship I have gotten severely slack in the cleaning department. I keep doing laundry but not fold it, so I folded 10,000 clothes today no lie, while folding Alexis clothes I weeded out the size 18 mos clothes which is what most of her wardrobe consists of, they fit in the waist but they are becoming high waters and other than looking uncool its just to cold now for her to be wearing high waters. anyways I had gone shopping for her birthday and bought 10 outfits but with the high waters I have already gotten into 2 of them for her to wear.Well, I decided to buy some more outfits and give her some to wear now I bought 5 more. so I put aside 5 outfits plus two she wore already for now and there are 8 outfits for her birthday. Now while you may think that is alot it is not, She had about 40 18 mos clothing which is being passed down to my great niece Mykenzie.

Dylan decided that he was going to chill in my room and eat Halloween candy, there were Kazillions of wrappers all over my room and floor, plus a bunch of Alexis toys that have collected in here. The toys will make there way in her room tomorrow as she is in bed now. Nice to see I have a bedroom again.

My kitchen is still clean since Monday, with exception of a few dishes.. Yay!! to up keep

My thought is if i clean it thoroughly and then perhaps I can maintain it, I hope.

And also making a choir list for Roommate, Dylan, and myself. team work, I hope

Joys of parenthood..lol

2009-11-07T08:40:00.000-05:00

Why is it that Dylan has a hard time waking up Monday through Friday but on this saturday morning he is up at 6:30am sitting on the computer with his headphones on but singing at the top of his lungs and in the process waking up his sleeping sister? Why?
My poor up stairs neighbor having to also be tortured by this horrible noise he calls singing
I sneaked this video of him jamming out, Its dark so not good quality but I hope you can at least hear him

Alexis is in her room saying help me, help me, which actually just means i want to get up and come out there.

Alexis is growing like a weed in height on me, well maybe its not that fast as she will be three in ten days but all of a sudden her 18 months pants are suddenly high waters, Now I have like 7 outfits for her birthday but apparently it cannot wait till then so I went out and bought five outfits for now, I am sure she will get more for her birthday. I now need to get all these 18 mos clothes out of here and give them to my great niece Mykenzie, she is only six mos old but she is a porker so she will get use from them before we know it.

OK poor Alexis has waited long enough for me to post I need to get her up and ready for the day. Gonna make some blueberry muffins for breakfast yum o

What moms are saying Mom Monday--- I am late as its tuesday

2009-11-03T21:36:00.000-05:00

I am Linking up with Genny at My cup to yours today using this starter sentence

The best part about being a mom is.. seeing my children smile, or their laughter there is nothing better than that, well except for the first time they say I love you mummy

Lifes happenings, and Halloween

2009-11-03T20:13:00.000-05:00

I have been kind of slacking lately on my posts, I have neglected to post not me Monday. I didn't even do a Halloween post and now it is November 3rd, time is flying my baby is going to be three years old. I just cannot fathom this. She has had 3 evaluations so far for the developmental preschool and she has one more on November 9th and then the eligibility meeting is on her birthday November 17.

Anyways better late than never this is Princess Alexis sitting her her chariot (other wise know as a stroller)

this one from left to right are my twin nieces Amber and Ashley, their friend David and Dylan is the freak with the red wig farthest to the left

Last but not least is princess Alexis surrounded by daemons
where is the prince to come to her rescue?

Anyways I hope everyone had a good Halloween, I should have taken a picture at the mounds of Halloween candy but Dylan had the day off from school today and ate most of it.

I am more than half way through this semester and I just pre registered for spring semester.I will have my associates degree in December 2010 only 7 more classes woo hoo

not me monday

2009-10-26T20:02:00.000-04:00

So I did NOT order food tonight because I did Not feel like cooking.

I most certainly did NOT send Alexis to daycare with a blanket that was in the car because I did Not forget to wash her regular blanket.

I did Not give Alexis a sponge bath with huggies shea butter wipes this morning because she did NOT leak through her pull up and I did not keep pressing the snooze button on my alarm clock because I did NOT want to do anything this Monday morning which is why I did NOT have time to give Alexis a proper bath.

Also Dylan did NOT fail to hold Alexis hand while walking up the porch steps and she did NOT fall down the steps.

if anyone actually reads my post as it is NOT new please go an check out MckMama's not me monday.

Almost Halloween

2009-10-24T19:21:00.000-04:00

Alexis is going to be a princess for Halloween this year. Friday October 30 there is trick or treat at the college and Alexis' will bring her and all her classmate and they will also have some goodies after lunch.

On actual Halloween and there will be trick or treating in the neighborhoods Dylan and some other teens will be taking Alexis along, I will hand out Candy with my sister Tammy.

Today I paid of the Lay a way for Alexis birthday presents and then put another one on for Christmas. Although I still need to get more but at least it is a start.

I have to write a paper for one class, do an assignment for another and study for tests over this weekend or whats left of it. Alexis had a very long and late nape so she will be up late tonight.

How much does a miracle cost?

2009-10-21T22:55:00.000-04:00

I got this in an email and thought it was wonderful

A little girl went

to her bedroom and pulled a glass jam jar from its hiding place in the closet.

She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three

times, even - the total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes.

Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she

slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with

the big red Indian Chief sign above the door.

She waited patiently for

the pharmacist to give her some attention, but he was too busy at this moment.

Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat

with the most disgusting sound she could muster. No good.Finally she took a

coin from her jar and banged it on the glass counter. That did it!

'And what do you want?' the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice. I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages,' he

said without waiting for a reply to his question.

'Well, I want to talk

to you about my brother,' Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. 'He's

really, really sick...and I want to buy a miracle.'

'I beg your pardon?'

said the pharmacist.

'His name is Andrew and he has something bad

growing inside his head and my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now, so how

much does a miracle cost?'

'We don't sell miracles here, little girl.

I'm sorry but I can't help you,' the pharmacist said, softening a little.

'Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get

the rest. Just tell me how much it costs.'

The pharmacist's brother was

a well dressed man. He stooped down and asked the little girl, 'What kind of a

miracle does your brother need?'

' I don't know,' Tess replied with her

eyes welling up. I just know he's really sick and Mummy says he needs an

operation. But my Daddy can't pay for it, so I want to use my money.'

'How much do you have?' asked the man from Chicago

'One dollar

and eleven cents,' Tess answered barely audibly.

'And it's all the money

I have, but I can get some more if I need to.'

'Well, what a

coincidence,' smiled the man. 'A dollar and eleven cents---the exact price of a

miracle for little brothers. '

He took her money in one hand and with

the other hand he grasped her mitten and said, 'Take me to where you live. I want

to see your brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you

need.'

That well dressed man was Dr.Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon specializing in

neuro-surgery. The operation was completed free of charge and it

wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well.

Mum and Dad were

happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place.

'That surgery,' her Mum whispered, 'was a real miracle. I wonder how

much it would have cost?'

Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a

miracle cost..one dollar and eleven cents....plus the faith of a little child.

In our lives, we never know how many miracles we will need.

miracle is not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law.

I know you'll keep the ball moving!

Here it goes. Throw it back to

someone who means something to you!

A ball is a circle, no beginning, no

end. It keeps us together like our Circle of Friends, but the treasure inside

for you to see is the treasure of friendship you've granted to me.

Today

I pass the friendship ball to you.

Pass it on to someone who is a friend

to you.

MY OATH TO YOU...

When you are sad......I will dry your

tears.

When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears.

When

you are worried.....I will give you hope.

When you are confused.....I

will help you cope.

And when you are lost...And can't see the light, I

shall be your beacon....Shining ever so bright.

This is my oath.....I

pledge till the end.

Why you may ask?....Because you're my friend.

thanks for reading my blog

hope this gets you through the mid week humpday

am I a scary mommy?

2009-10-20T19:01:00.000-04:00

from Jill's blog at scary mommy

I am attempting at what might make me a scary mommy

When Dylan was little when we went to stores or the mall I would hide on him where I could see him but he could not see me and he would be in a little panic at not finding me, I usually did this after he would run off on me.

Dylan was afraid of dear old grandpa Frank and when he was naughty I told him I was going to drop him at grandpa Franks house... gee that was mean

Just the other day when Alexis ran in the parking lot I told her "you better not get hit buy a car, I don't want to be late to school because I need to call911 and go to the hospital

2009-10-19T15:11:00.001-04:00

I am trying out Not me Monday from MckMama. I love to read her Blog

I did NOT give Alexis cereal in a baggie Sunday morning because I was Not to lazy to make something for breakfast.

I did Not simply throw clothes in the washer be they dirty or clean because I did Not want to try and figure out what was dirty and what was clean and wanted to get the middle room tidied.

and lastly I did NOT wait until last minute in the morning to read my assignment that I had to do today about learning goals at my internship

well that is all I have for my first whirl at not me Monday please check out MckMama

Introduction

2009-10-19T14:36:00.000-04:00

I have another Blog called trying to find a new me which started kinda as a weight loss and personal goal blog, but I also wrote in it sporadically until recently, which has been about my 2 kids, family, and myself being a Single mother of my teenage son and my toddler daughter and also a full time college student.

So anyways I decided to start this one about my family and and other life happenings and use my other blog for things as weight loss goals and personal goals perhaps some things may intertwine but that is okay with me

My son's name is Dylan he is my teenage know it all. He is now a sophomore in highschool. I had Dylan when I was 16 so he has been pretty spoiled by his grandparents along the way, we moved out of my parents when he was seven. He is very close to Nana and Grumpy

My daughter is Alexis is my little princess, she just started preschool in September at 2 yrs 9 mos of age. She is almost 3 time is flying. She had G.E.R.D. as a baby and recently weaned from prevacid. She is also been recently diagnosed with Periventricula leukomalacia (PVL) which is the cause for her developmental delays. She did not start walking until she was 22 mos old and talking there after. Though since starting Daycare( which is also where she attends preschool now) she has blossomed. She has been recieving early intervention since she was 4 mos old but that will end when she turns 3 in less than a month so we are trying to get her into a developmental preschool so that she can continue to recieve services.

I am Amy, single, full time mom with no help from dear old daddy, and full time college student going for my associates degree in human services and I am also currently interning as well.

I am the youngest of 8 children, 5 sister and 2 brothers my oldest sister died in a car accident in December 2003.My mom and dad (i.e. Nanny and Grumpy) are the world to me, and had a scare with my mom few weeks back she was in the hospital for five weeks and it was grim news at first but she is a fighter and she is home now.

anyways my next post will be a mimic of my other blog because I wrote a not me monday and I want to do that with this blog